Flashback to December 2019. I was sick in bed and on winter vacation. What do you do when you’re sick but need some entertainment? I could’ve watched a movie or TV show but my attention span was too short. I was too exhausted to find something. I had heard people talking about this app called Tik Tok so I downloaded it. Little did I know that I would soon become obsessed with Tik Tok…
From December 2019 to June 2020, I probably spent 2-3 hours a day on Tik Tok. I know, that’s a lot. But once I started watching videos, the time would fly by! When I would get on Tik Tok, I would go into a hole of watching videos made by Tik Tok creators with over 1 million followers. I would constantly think how did they get all of these followers? Some people do have amazing content and skills, but others don’t.
Then I saw a video about how Charli D’Amelio got a huge deal with a company and made upwards of $100k from the deal. I was jealous, upset, and annoyed. But why? Like this girl is a great dancer and I’m sure she is nice but how does one make that much money and gain so much fame from an app?
I realized that I didn’t want to feel this way. I couldn’t let an app control how I feel. It’s normal to feel jealous sometimes, especially when you know that you won’t ever make that much money doing a job that is mentally and emotionally trying. But I didn’t want to look at some else’s life and constantly feel jealous, so I decided to delete it.
By doing this, I gave myself freedom from these feelings. I figured out the problem (Tik Tok) and the solution (deleting it). Since I’ve done that, I have been feeling a lot better. I have been able to spend that time working on my blog and reading. I do miss the entertainment portion but I don’t miss those feelings.
It can be hard when you want to be up to date and in the know but growing up is learning about your triggers. For me, Tik Tok was one of those. Deleting Tik Tok saved my mental health.
The question now is what do I do about Instagram Reels? I have been watching them but they don’t make me feel bad. Should I continue? What do you think?